First Kink Party

The day started off like a ball that whizzings past your ear.. you saw it but couldn’t react on it.. to tired.. to slow.. to far in your head.. in your own space..

So I would say it was a good way to go to my first kink party thanks to My protector (someone that lead me through kink world) and the owners of the house Big Daddy and DaddyGirl.. My mind.. fully empty.. no expectations..

Door got opened and a very Big.. Dom.. that needed to look down on me welcomed me in and I got immediately a safe feeling.. the feeling that you can’t fake… just warm.. accepting… and authentic themselves. Really that was wat I needed, in that moment. People that are not afraid to show how they really are and try everything to find it..

When things got a bit settled.. I knew nobody.. only protector .. eyes on me, compliments, hugs and questions it felt like I was took in the family before I realized it.

Sitting on the couch “little safe bubble” here I could sit and look for a while.. busy doing my own ropes and talking one by one to some people.. deep breath.. talk to myself “ settled in on level 2.. its going good haha”

On my position as “the cat that observe everything” I saw two very happy kitty’s on the floor playing.. I looked with big eyes.. in my head plays.. “Can I look that long.. is that accepted here…?” The big Dom saw me looking I got a bit shy but I saw that I didn’t do anything wrong.. so got again a bit more relaxed “settled in on level 3” after I had seen the kitty’s going upstars it became a bit more quiet and thought for a moment what I wanted and I wanted a beer haha so then I met the “big Dom” in a more quiet matter showed me where I could find the beer and asked if I was already.. thinking of myself again.. im not that used to people that really ask me how Im doing and that give me the feeling that they have time to listen.. its really nice to feel that.. I know from myself that showing/talking about my emotions/needs are not my best quality.

From that moment it moved all more peaceful…I enjoyed all the open conversations, taboo talks and respect that was a general air in the room.

I asked around (or it was just done public ;P) if I could watch at things like electro play, knife play, spanking.. saw clumps of beatings (wanted/ with consent off course), all sorts of vulvas, titiesss, people who were masturbated and a penis here and there.. it was amazing to see how free everyone is and want to give others the knowledge from there experiences.

My really excited shibari model LatexLady give me the chance to use his whole body to put in ropes.. his words “make me your most beautiful art work!” and well I tried altho I was a bit anxious to do it by a totale stranger hahah he was the sweetest, Thanku!

I didn’t know if I could have more surprises but yes offcourse I see a old classmate, so happy to see he found a place where he could be fully himself after a schooltime without acceptance, I wish you all the best! you are on a right path.. I can feel it!

My head is still so full of that Evening/Night all the new contacts and poeh yeah well so many new experiences I need to process it.. Takes time what I normally not give to myself.. although I had my 3th day off relax (bed rest), my body says “STOP” and I will listen.. a little bit then 😉

All the love,